{"id":1661,"date":"2019-09-26T18:25:35","date_gmt":"2019-09-26T18:25:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.letrat.eu\/?p=1661"},"modified":"2024-04-23T01:06:25","modified_gmt":"2024-04-23T00:06:25","slug":"sg-ska-ndonje-akil-perjashta-2012","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/?p=1661","title":{"rendered":"SG – S’ka ndonj\u00eb Akil p\u00ebrjashta, 2012"},"content":{"rendered":"

s. guraziu – ars poetica, 2012 (torturat ndaj zemrave, lufta brenda “k\u00ebshtjelles”)<\/em><\/p>\n

“…kjo figur\u00eb imcake q\u00eb e shihni n\u00eb qoshe \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb artist me vet\u00ebm 1 ide n\u00eb kok\u00ebn e tij, me 1 ide t\u00eb vetme t\u00eb ashtuquajtur nga ai vet\u00eb: plani A dhe plani B<\/strong>”<\/p>\n

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\nE dim\u00eb q\u00eb jeta nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebm rritje nga \u201cjasht\u00eb\u201d, vet\u00ebm vrap pas krijimit t\u00eb pasuris\u00eb, pas prestigjit dhe pas gradave e dekoratave. Jeta s’\u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebm \u201ckultivimi\u201d i besimeve personale, i principeve apo\u2026 i hedonistikave – e dim\u00eb q\u00eb jeta dhe universi personal \u00ebsht\u00eb shuuum\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb.<\/p>\n

N\u00eb jet\u00eb ballafaqohemi me p\u00ebrplot situatash pa dalur fare jasht\u00eb \u201ck\u00ebshtjelles\u201d, s\u2019ka ndonj\u00eb Akil q\u00eb na th\u00ebrret p\u00ebrjashta n\u00eb dyluftim. Akoma pa u hapur portat, thjesht ashtu brenda nesh nj\u00eb laryshi e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb mal informacionesh q\u00eb sugjerojn\u00eb luft\u00ebn. Her\u00eb situatash qesharake, e her\u00eb tep\u00ebr serioze, her\u00eb kalamll\u00ebqesh, gj\u00ebrash foshnjarake e menderosjesh…<\/p>\n

Jeta vetiu \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj lufte – thuhet k\u00ebshtu nga gjithkush dhe gjithandej. N\u00eb secilin krah q\u00eb rrotullohemi, betejat e situatat jan\u00eb t\u00eb panum\u00ebrta dhe t\u00eb ndryshme. Q\u00eb nga dit\u00ebt e para t\u00eb frymimit na p\u00ebrcjellin p\u00ebrplot g\u00ebzimesh e hidh\u00ebrimesh, r\u00ebniesh e ngritjesh, fitimesh, d\u00ebshtimesh\u2026 etj.<\/p>\n

\u00cbsht\u00eb luft\u00eb jo vet\u00ebm n\u00eb rrafshin e ngusht\u00eb, p\u00ebr ekzistenc\u00ebn \u2013 si\u00e7 m\u00eb tep\u00ebr aludon shprehja metaforikisht \u2013 por dhe p\u00ebr konsolidimin e harmonis\u00eb, p\u00ebr vet\u00eb-avancimin e brendsh\u00ebm, p\u00ebr kornizimin e karakterit e p\u00ebr kalitjen. K\u00ebshtusoj jeta jon\u00eb patjet\u00ebr se \u00ebsht\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb lloj lufte e pambarim brenda mureve t\u00eb k\u00ebshtjell\u00ebs, luft\u00eb me vetveten.<\/p>\n

Luft\u00eb e pandalshme brenda nesh, luft\u00eb me sentimentet e me ngarkesat emocionale, pastaj aso formash q\u00eb (nga ai komisti amerikan \u00c7arli – Charlie Sheen) – jan\u00eb komedizuar si \u201canger management\u201d, pastaj menaxhim i streseve etj. etj., sa p\u00ebr t\u2019i p\u00ebrmendur ca formash.<\/p>\n

Por jo vet\u00ebm \u00c7arli, kjo bot\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e mbushur me kronist\u00eb-psikolog\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb q\u00eb e kan\u00eb pasion dhe profesion ta analizojn\u00eb, ta studiojn\u00eb, ta komentojn\u00eb “psiko-natyr\u00ebn” e njeriut. Lufta jon\u00eb internale \u00ebsht\u00eb luft\u00eb serioze – natyrisht q\u00eb implikohen disa rregulla “luftarake”, dhe e ka at\u00eb kodin e vet.<\/p>\n

Sa duam t\u2019ia pranojm\u00eb vetes se megjithat\u00eb nj\u00eb Akil i brenda-mureve na provokon, kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje tjet\u00ebr, madje s\u2019na detyron kush. Disa gj\u00ebra mund\u00ebsisht s\u2019do duhej t\u2019i marrim t\u00eb gatshme, pa\u00e7ka se m\u00eb e leht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Pavar\u00ebsisht n\u00eb cilin stad t\u00eb luft\u00ebs t\u00eb ndodhet \u201ck\u00ebshtjella jon\u00eb\u201d, n\u00eb luft\u00eb e sip\u00ebr s\u2019duhet ta torturojm\u00eb zemr\u00ebn. Me secil\u00ebn betej\u00eb e kacafytje zemra \u00ebsht\u00eb i vetmi \u201carbit\u00ebr\u201d q\u00eb e kemi. E vetmja q\u00eb mund t\u2019i besojm\u00eb absolutisht \u2013 dhe pipi i saj, ku di un\u00eb\u2026 ndoshta nund t’jet\u00eb nd\u00ebrgjegjia.<\/p>\n

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\nNganj\u00ebher\u00eb sikur ndjehemi \u201cfitimtar\u201d tek ashtu, thjesht sepse nuk humbasim gj\u00eb (padashur, as aksidentalisht). Asgj\u00eb s’na shket nga dora, asgj\u00eb nuk thyhet, s\u2019ka ndonj\u00eb “vazo kristali” q\u00eb duhet ngjitur (kristalet jan\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonisht kompleks, andaj dhe duhet kujdes i jasht\u00ebzakonsh\u00ebm), s\u2019ka di\u00e7 q\u00eb nuk ngjitet, q\u00eb nuk riparohet. \u00c7’duhet fituar m\u00eb shum\u00eb n\u00ebse ve\u00e7 ndjehemi fitimtar?!<\/p>\n

N\u00ebse gj\u00ebrat s\u2019kan\u00eb l\u00ebvizur, akoma jan\u00eb ashtu si\u00e7 ishin, n\u00ebse h\u00ebp\u00ebrh\u00eb “fatin” e kemi n\u00eb an\u00ebn ton\u00eb, aq e leht\u00eb n\u00eb secil\u00ebn koh\u00eb, natyrisht, t\u00eb k\u00ebnaqemi me aq. Moshumbja e di\u00e7kaje (q\u00eb mund ta humbisnim) sikur na mjafton, sikur e ngop\u00eb ego-n ton\u00eb. Di\u00e7 t\u00eb till\u00eb madje mund dhe ta kthejm\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb feste, ashtu tin\u00ebzisht t\u00eb festojm\u00eb e t\u00eb dehemi brenda vetes.<\/p>\n

Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb si fitore e ndjejm\u00eb dhe vet\u00eb hapin zero, thjesht pikat A dhe B nuk ekzistojn\u00eb, s’k\u00ebrkohet ndonj\u00eb ndryshim. \u201cVictoria\u201d sikur e ngopur me sistemin e gj\u00ebrave – s’k\u00ebrkohet aksioni, prishja e qet\u00ebsis\u00eb, s’\u00ebsht\u00eb nevoja t\u00eb trazohet as vet\u00eb ajri.<\/p>\n

S\u00ebk\u00ebndejmi thuase as idet\u00eb tona s’na nevojiten, sikur t\u00eb panevojshme, t\u00eb tep\u00ebrta\u2026 (k\u00ebtu m\u2019u kujtua nj\u00eb artist q\u00eb parodizonte gjoja me nj\u00eb dikend anonim, por ai n\u00eb fakt e b\u00ebnte me veten, me nj\u00eb di\u00e7 si vizatim minimalist sikur tallej me vog\u00eblsin\u00eb e vet artistike: \u201ckjo figur\u00eb imcake q\u00eb e shihni n\u00eb qoshe \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb artist me vet\u00ebm 1 ide n\u00eb kok\u00ebn e tij, me 1 ide t\u00eb vetme t\u00eb ashtuquajtur nga ai vet\u00eb: \u201cplani A dhe plani B\u201d).<\/p>\n

Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb ndjehemi \u201chumb\u00ebs\u201d, pandehim se kemi humbur di\u00e7… duke fituar di\u00e7 q\u00eb nuk e prisnim. Papritmas sikur na imponohet ta ngadalsojm\u00eb frym\u00ebmarrjen. Ose dhe pik\u00ebrisht e kund\u00ebrta, sikur na imponohet ngutja – shpesh rendim si t\u00eb marr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u2019mos ngelim pa frym\u00ebn ton\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Dhe zemrat kurr\u00eb s\u2019ankohen. Aty-k\u00ebtu kemi p\u00ebrshtypjen sikur dhe zemra ngutulushe, por jo. Ajo thjesht akordohet me hujet tona t\u00eb papritura, me oksigjenin e frym\u00ebs, me sistemin e vet\u00ebftohjes, me frym\u00ebmarrjen e qelizave, me secilin cik\u00ebl t\u00eb qenies dhe me t\u00eb gjitha reciprocitetet e jet\u00ebs. E ngrata kujdeset dhe p\u00ebr dozat e lot\u00ebve q\u00eb na duhen, p\u00ebr rrezet e diellit t\u00eb vetmis\u00eb, p\u00ebr harkun e ylberit dhe p\u00ebr ngjyrat e tij, p\u00ebr drit\u00ebn dhe nuancat e lumturis\u00eb\u2026 p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka!<\/p>\n

Nd\u00ebrsa ne, \u00e7’b\u00ebjm\u00eb ne, (merre me mend : ) harrestar\u00eb, ose shtiremi sikur s\u2019e dim\u00eb. Vazhdojm\u00eb ta torturojm\u00eb me gj\u00ebrash kot\u2026 pafalsh\u00ebm e padenj\u00ebsisht, nj\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Askush s\u2019i \u201cnjeh\u201d luftrat e brenda-k\u00ebshtjell\u00ebs m\u00eb mir\u00eb se zemra. Cilado zem\u00ebr i di sakrificat, i kupton dhe sfidat, operon pagabuesh\u00ebm. Zemra \u00ebsht\u00eb ai barometri sublim i qenies, aparati m\u00eb i sofistikuar… i “lidhur” me mendjen. Pa simbole, pa germash, pa asfar\u00eb shenjash, pa numra\u2026 q\u00eb nga thirravaji i par\u00eb i foshnj\u00ebris\u00eb i ruan r\u00ebniet, ngritjet, t\u00eb gjitha statistikat. I ruan sepse i duhen asaj vet\u00eb, p\u00ebr t’i “arbitruar” hapat tan\u00eb; humbjet, fitoret, kupat e krenaris\u00eb, marshimet, d\u00ebshtimet, ngrysjet, paqen, madje dhe “flamujt e bardh\u00eb”… ecejaket e gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

(Ilustrimi: Igor Morski<\/em>)<\/p>\n

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s. guraziu – ars poetica, 2012 (torturat ndaj zemrave, lufta brenda “k\u00ebshtjelles”) “…kjo figur\u00eb imcake q\u00eb e shihni n\u00eb qoshe \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb artist me vet\u00ebm 1 ide n\u00eb kok\u00ebn e tij, me 1 ide t\u00eb vetme t\u00eb ashtuquajtur nga ai… Lexo →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1661","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-humoreska"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1661","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1661"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1661\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1661"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1661"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/letrat.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1661"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}